something is happening to me and i don’t quite know what to do with it. there are these brilliant blogging women creeping into my consciousness and i am feeling so kindred it is at once disarming and thrilling. my inner voice screams “this is your TRIBE”,  yet that ego-shyness is causing me to take pause and continue to lurk in on their delicious and intriguing lives. it is just another way that i am sitting on the edge of something big. another portal through which i think i am about to step into some great expansive expression of my authentic self. i am sitting in that anxious inertia where the ideas swirl and the creative force is gestating. my ankles are swollen, i am so over this metaphorical pregnancy, i can barely stand it. it’s like twin elephants have been gestating. so i know it’s gonna be big. and worth waiting for. where i feel a little ( a lot) tripped up is in that tippy balance of surrender and action. when to get still, and ask , for direction. and when to just pick a thing to do and just do it. take action. i have so much that is ready to bust out of me. i just don’t know where to start. so, i am starting here with this blog. and i’ll figure the rest out as i go.