taking the time.

oakleigh trellis lights, iphone, june 2009

for the first summer in four years, it looks as though we might not be moving. we've lived in four houses since we relocated back to california in 2005. we just may stay put this summer. i'm awakening my longing for creating spaces that will last a little while, taking the time to add some welcoming touches that suggest that this home is not a transient space. suggest to myself that i'm staying. settling.

planting a garden. hanging lanterns. putting up a tree swing. painting a bedroom.

because, even if this home is also temporary, as all things eventually are, i want to allow myself to fully embody the space while i'm in it. something i haven't really done in so many years. care for it. love it. and let it really rise up to meet us when we come home.

and, in kind, i am going to take some time this week to do the same with this blog. a little housekeeping and organization. sprucing up and visioning for the next phase. settling in. when i began, it was just about putting myself out there, a trial of sorts, and now i want to bump it up a level. connect more. inspire. fill it up. really ask for what i imagine this space could be. because i am planning to stay a while. move in wholly. and i'd like for you to, also.

i feel a little stirring when i say this, a little anxious, doubting voice…there's passion here.

the intention is set. now, to take the time to see it through. when lined up with passion, the time taken, the efforting, is effortless. there's nothing i'd rather be doing than creating this space to unfold all that is to come.

"It is the heart after years of secret conversing, speaking out loud in the clear air." ~david whyte

Categories: imagining

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quietly.

from toast

i am assimilating these past weeks. my mind is blessedly still. my senses keen but in that sunlit blurry vintage photo kind of way. heart beating steady and strong. birds calling from high in their eucalyptus nest. feeling intimate. soft. knowing and still. my ears are ringing, too.

i want to tell the stories of these past two weeks.

tell them well and with gratitude, humor and grace.

and i will.

but this day is asking for quiet. and i am willing. yielding. open.

(my apology for the shortened video width, due to my column width. i worked it way too long to get it right, to no avail. it's still lovely as is. however, to see it in common aspect ratio, click the toast link).